When I was really little me and my parents were looking at beds, and there was one set that came with two matching beds. As an only child I said, “Mommy! When I’m married can me and my husband buy this so that we can just hold hands when we sleep?”
And to this my mom replied, “Trust me, Sarah, when you’re older you’ll want to sleep in the same bed.”
“But why?” I asked.
“You’ll know when you’re older.”
LOL.
1984 || George Orwell
The relevance….
Oh, it’s like God knew what I needed or something. #God #Morning #devotion #bedtimeblessings #book (Taken with instagram)
One last thing before I block my tumblr:
God is the only one that can bring you through the darkness.
There are two thoughts that are incredibly deceiving:
1. Someone else is your light.
2. You are your only light.
Too often we look to other people to give us light and hope.
Too often we depend on our own understandings and our own strength to heal us.
And when it doesn’t help, we wonder where God is…but I think the reality is that the reason He is not “showing up” is because we weren’t even bothering to call upon Him.
We didn’t bother to let go of our problems and give Him control.
We didn’t ASK Him. We didn’t take a moment to TELL Him and confess and forget our pride to say that we can’t do it on our own.
We always want to be control of things….but that’s not how it should be.
I am absolutely IN LOVE with these lyrics:
I had a dream that I was captain of my soul
I was master of my fate, lost control. and then I sank
So I don’t want to take the lead, ‘cause I’m prone to make mistakes
All the folks who follow me, going end up in the wrong place
So let me just shadow you, let me trace your lines
Matter of fact, just take my pen, here, you create my rhymes
‘Cause if I do this by myself, I’m scared that I’ll succeed
And no longer trust in you, ‘cause I only trust in me
And see, that’s how you end up headed to destruction
Paving a road to nowhere, pour your life out for nothing
Just keep these things in mind. It’s not easy. And there’s no concrete answer on “HOW” to do this. The only thing I can say is PRAY.
God once said to me, “Prayers can solve even the most complex problems your heart could ever have.”
I believe in those words. That’s when prayer is powerful. When you believe.
And if you don’t believe in prayer or it’s power—this is what I know: God will prove to you someday that it’s more than words to someone you can’t see. It’s a weapon. He will show you.
-splashofhope || A Light in the Dark
I give my heart away so damn easily. And it takes years to get it back.
No wonder God doesn’t allow me to date a lot of people like some of my friends.
My heart can’t handle it.
Beauty :: Perception :: The Cycle.
Sometimes, many times actually, I’ll look at myself and I’ll say, “God…you made me so plain. I can’t find anything about me that is physically appealing. Why couldn’t you have made me beautiful like others?”
And of course, I always hear God say that He made me perfect. It’s not about what’s on the outside. It’s the inside that radiates true and genuine beauty.
However, all of this has got me thinking….
I’m not the only one who doubts my beauty.
So of the most beautiful friends and people that I know doubt their beauty.
I compare myself to them.
They compare themselves to others.
And it’s this never-ending cycle caused the the enemy that wants us to be totally distracted from accepting our true worth. The enemy does everything in his power to stop us from believing that we are beautiful, that we are worth something.
And the cycle is so real, and it does not stop at the physical.
I started to think tonight that maybe the prettiest woman in the universe could look at me and be jealous of the soul that’s within me; the faith that I possess.
I realized that it is indeed possible for the most gorgeous woman in the world to look down on the plainest girl in the world and say, “I wish that I could be here,” while that plain girl wishes it could be the other way around.
Why is it such a struggle for us to be happy with who we are? What we have?
Next time you look in the mirror, I encourage you to take a deeper look.
What really matters to you?
What is it that you want to attract? And in what means do you want to attract them?
And if that wasn’t clear then this is what I mean: If you want someone who is worth holding on to, first make yourself into the person that is worth holding on to. Be someone with the beautiful soul that radiates outward and shines upon everything you do….everything you are.
You know, God is good.
There’s no doubt about it.
There will be days when you’ll think that there is nothing good in the world.
But just wait:
Something will prove to you that you’re wrong on that one—and that there IS still light. And that there IS still goodness. And that things DO happen for a reason. And that things WILL be okay.
You won’t always see it in the mean time.
We are not meant to have all the answers.
But we are meant to experience things and pain in order to gain wisdom and understanding.
And God loves us enough to give us those things.
First comes the pain.
Then comes the joy.
The joy sustains us through future pain.
But Joy: That, is what will last forever in the end.
The problem is how much I know I’m wrong. When it comes to disregarding the bad things.
I know that this isn’t what God wants for me. The things that I want to happen, that’s not what He wants to happen.
He told me Himself.
He told me multiple times.
That’s the part that hurts
That’s the part that makes me know I need to leave behind the things that I want in order to gain what HE has for me.
In the mean time though
it frking hurts.
True fulfilling joy doesn’t come when you get what you want or when you get into a relationship that you always wanted.
I really liked what the guy said about marriage today at church.
“There’s this time during your life before marriage——the time of singleness, and that is NOT a bad word—— that God wants you ALL TO HIMSELF.”
That’s the time where He can really grow you and speak with you. No distraction from another person. No dedicated division of love.
You wonder why relationships don’t work out, well maybe this is one of the reasons. You were to distracted from the TRUE goodness that God has planned out for you life. And He needed you to be single so that you could truly dedicate yourself to HIM.
That’s where the true joy lies. That’s where true goodness is able to be multiplied in your life.
Whatever God takes away from you….will be given back 100 times over.
I’ve realized that God wants control of our lives, not because He’s selfish and wants to screw things up, but because, naturally, we screw things up when we take control.
When things spiral out of control…we blame God, but it’s because His perfect life for ourselves doesn’t measure up to the perfect life that we envisioned for ourselves.
The thing is…His overflows. It goes beyond the lines that we drew ourselves. His plan is more perfect than ours was—-because He sees the ENTIRE picture when we only see one part.
And it’s so hard….when we’re finally happy and then something has to change.
It’s hard to understand why God does what He does…
but always remember :Whatever God chooses to take away—and whatever we GIVE UP to God—He will return in a greater abundance.
It’s sad. We’ve gotten so used to glorifying skinny and perfect bodies that when we someone not up to par, our automatic response is, “ew.”
The change begins with Us.
Um. Dear People who say that God laughs when Fags die.
GEE. IF GOD LAUGHED WHENEVER A FAG DIED, THEN HE WOULDN’T EVEN HAVE BOTHERED TO GIVE THEM A LIFE IN THE FIRST PLACE.
And if God hated fags, then He wouldn’t even have bothered to let them live.
You people who claim to be a believer and follower of God, who still genuinely call people fags and mistreat them, obviously have no clue what you believe in. Or you know what you believe—or what you think you believe…but it’s seriously wrong. Because God loves His creation. And fine, I do believe homosexuality is a sin. But God HATES the SIN, LOVES the sinner.
And everyone always questions why God never seems to do anything to help the poor: We were put on this earth to LOVE people. WE were given dominion over the earth…not to do evil and hurt others but to LOVE on others the way God sent His son to love us.
And I’m pretty sure calling people fags and seeking to hurt them is not love.
..And that’s just one of the many things that we are at fault with.
We need to do a better job at loving others you guys. We all do.
Someone please tell me I’m not the only one. I know I can’t be!
Unreal Expectations.
“Don’t get caught up in the idea of a person, but instead be caught up in the reality of that person.”
-The guy I like when he showed up in my dream.
