(Psalm 42:7; 69:2) Before I fell asleep last night God spoke to me and said a certain relationship would not work out because if he were to see the depths of my heart, he would run away. Not all people are ready for such depth from a person’s heart, their love. Then I dreamt last night. There were images of deep waters, a mystical type of water. Throughout the entire dream a worship song resounded: “MY HEART cries DEEPER. My cries deeper for you. My HEART grows deeper, my heart grows louder for you. These depths come from my heart, and they grow louder for you. For YOU,God!” you see, the ways of the Lord are unable to be understood. He works mysteriously. He fills the depths of our hearts with love, music, and friendship. He fills us with HIM. I understand suddenly the intention of what He did last night: IF I CHOSE TO SETTLE for what I want—who I want, I’d end up empty. The larger and deeper my heart is, the more it takes to be satisfied. ONLY THE FATHER, THE CREATOR, and SAVIOR can fill my heart, which grows deeper and deeper for the love of the LORD. Only He can satisfy. #devotion #personal #love #God #Psalms #life #Water #Christ (Taken with instagram)
1984 || George Orwell
The relevance….
In Life and Death: All’s Forgiven (original piano composition)
It was only an ‘opeless fancy…
(Source: splashofhope)
One last thing before I block my tumblr:
God is the only one that can bring you through the darkness.
There are two thoughts that are incredibly deceiving:
1. Someone else is your light.
2. You are your only light.
Too often we look to other people to give us light and hope.
Too often we depend on our own understandings and our own strength to heal us.
And when it doesn’t help, we wonder where God is…but I think the reality is that the reason He is not “showing up” is because we weren’t even bothering to call upon Him.
We didn’t bother to let go of our problems and give Him control.
We didn’t ASK Him. We didn’t take a moment to TELL Him and confess and forget our pride to say that we can’t do it on our own.
We always want to be control of things….but that’s not how it should be.
I am absolutely IN LOVE with these lyrics:
I had a dream that I was captain of my soul
I was master of my fate, lost control. and then I sank
So I don’t want to take the lead, ‘cause I’m prone to make mistakes
All the folks who follow me, going end up in the wrong place
So let me just shadow you, let me trace your lines
Matter of fact, just take my pen, here, you create my rhymes
‘Cause if I do this by myself, I’m scared that I’ll succeed
And no longer trust in you, ‘cause I only trust in me
And see, that’s how you end up headed to destruction
Paving a road to nowhere, pour your life out for nothing
Just keep these things in mind. It’s not easy. And there’s no concrete answer on “HOW” to do this. The only thing I can say is PRAY.
God once said to me, “Prayers can solve even the most complex problems your heart could ever have.”
I believe in those words. That’s when prayer is powerful. When you believe.
And if you don’t believe in prayer or it’s power—this is what I know: God will prove to you someday that it’s more than words to someone you can’t see. It’s a weapon. He will show you.
-splashofhope || A Light in the Dark
I give my heart away so damn easily. And it takes years to get it back.
No wonder God doesn’t allow me to date a lot of people like some of my friends.
My heart can’t handle it.
I should be content and happy being single.
Because right now, I know that at the right time, I’ll get to be happy in a relationship under God’s blessing.
And I’m not going to force anything anymore. I’m not going to rush anything anymore.
It only hurts if you love too fast.
“To see how quickly something can be yours without first seeing how quickly it can be gone is always the reason for your unending pain.”-God (2010)
Romance is a slow dance, right?
It’s about time I start taking that to heart.
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“Child, it is one thing to doubt me because you fear it….and it is another thing to doubt me because you don’t presently see how it could come to be. There is a difference, do you understand? To doubt because you can’t see how it could happen is like doubting the ever-coming Sunrise at 3 in the morning. Just because you cannot see signs of the coming dawn, does not mean it will not come.”
GOD (3232012)
So why don’t we talk more often?
True fulfilling joy doesn’t come when you get what you want or when you get into a relationship that you always wanted.
I really liked what the guy said about marriage today at church.
“There’s this time during your life before marriage——the time of singleness, and that is NOT a bad word—— that God wants you ALL TO HIMSELF.”
That’s the time where He can really grow you and speak with you. No distraction from another person. No dedicated division of love.
You wonder why relationships don’t work out, well maybe this is one of the reasons. You were to distracted from the TRUE goodness that God has planned out for you life. And He needed you to be single so that you could truly dedicate yourself to HIM.
That’s where the true joy lies. That’s where true goodness is able to be multiplied in your life.
Whatever God takes away from you….will be given back 100 times over.
Sighh<3 (Taken with instagram)
He is just everything I want physically. Externally…and partly personality-wise, he’s got all I want.
But he has nothing I need spiritually. Nothing that will bring me closer to God.
If I’m going to date anyone it CANNOT be self-seeking, and self-seeking is all this has been.
It hurts me.
It’ll hurt him.
But God has been saying no.
He’ll be given someone who’s truly right for him.
I’ll be given someone who’s truly right for me.
Lol and hopefully he’ll be chivalrous and patient and understanding and he’ll actually know how to treat me.
The hard part is letting go of the thing you want so that God can give you what you actually need.
But that’s where trust and dependence on God’s strength comes in cuz I can’t do this on my own.
But We’ll be ok.
This song is so powerful
“Your Love is Everything” -Jesus Culture
You keep no records of my sins.
You don’t remember all my shame.
Your Love heals every disease
Your Love fulfills my every need
Your Love is everything.
One Thing I Know (Part 2) || Sarah Michelle Cruz
I heard that you found someone who you’re not afraid to love
I heard that you found someone who you’re willing to give everything to
And I heard that she is better than me
In all ways possible.
And I heard that she can do all the things
That I could never do.
What happened to second chances?
What happened to fighting for love?
I never thought that we would come to this.
I never thought that we would be like this…
Tell me,
what brought us here?
Was it that smile of yours that turned
To a mouth that wanted to shout out all your pain?
Was it that endless passion that turned to a passion that wanted
Nothing but to push me away?
Well I don’t have all the answers right now.
But there’s One thing I know:
It’s that I gotta let you go.
When I said
I didn’t know where we’d be
I didn’t think we’d be in ruins
When you said
You’d never let me go
I can’t believe that I believed in you
And now I’m sitting here in the broken glass
of what we used to be.
Wondering if it was me
Wondering if it was me..
Was it the way I couldn’t be the girl
You wanted me to be?
Was it the way I couldn’t love you
In ways you wanted me to love you?
Did you compare me to someone in your past?
Did I not meet your expectations?
Did my fears push you away?
Did you hate me when you saw the real me?
I don’t have all the answers right now…
But there’s one thing I know:
It’s that you have let me go.
