(Psalm 42:7; 69:2) Before I fell asleep last night God spoke to me and said a certain relationship would not work out because if he were to see the depths of my heart, he would run away. Not all people are ready for such depth from a person’s heart, their love. Then I dreamt last night. There were images of deep waters, a mystical type of water. Throughout the entire dream a worship song resounded: “MY HEART cries DEEPER. My cries deeper for you. My HEART grows deeper, my heart grows louder for you. These depths come from my heart, and they grow louder for you. For YOU,God!” you see, the ways of the Lord are unable to be understood. He works mysteriously. He fills the depths of our hearts with love, music, and friendship. He fills us with HIM. I understand suddenly the intention of what He did last night: IF I CHOSE TO SETTLE for what I want—who I want, I’d end up empty. The larger and deeper my heart is, the more it takes to be satisfied. ONLY THE FATHER, THE CREATOR, and SAVIOR can fill my heart, which grows deeper and deeper for the love of the LORD. Only He can satisfy. #devotion #personal #love #God #Psalms #life #Water #Christ (Taken with instagram)
(While I was driving today to practice, the song “I’ll Show You How To Live” by Sanctus Real was playing)
Me: My life….it’s just the beginning. From now on I start to experience all the things of growing up. Soon…my life is finally going to begin.
God: No, Child. Your life starts today. In fact, it started from the first day. From your first breath. You don’t wait for a certain time or a certain moment to begin living your life. You don’t wait for a certain mark to begin living. Life starts in every single moment that I give you another breath. If you wait to live your life, you will only waste it. Don’t waste the life I’ve given you by waiting to begin to live. I will show you how to live.
(Source: allforlovephoto)
Jane Eyre
Yes. We strive. We appreciate nothing, unless we strive.
^^Agreed(:
1984 || George Orwell
The relevance….
In Life and Death: All’s Forgiven (original piano composition)
It was only an ‘opeless fancy…
(Source: splashofhope)
Oh, it’s like God knew what I needed or something. #God #Morning #devotion #bedtimeblessings #book (Taken with instagram)
One last thing before I block my tumblr:
God is the only one that can bring you through the darkness.
There are two thoughts that are incredibly deceiving:
1. Someone else is your light.
2. You are your only light.
Too often we look to other people to give us light and hope.
Too often we depend on our own understandings and our own strength to heal us.
And when it doesn’t help, we wonder where God is…but I think the reality is that the reason He is not “showing up” is because we weren’t even bothering to call upon Him.
We didn’t bother to let go of our problems and give Him control.
We didn’t ASK Him. We didn’t take a moment to TELL Him and confess and forget our pride to say that we can’t do it on our own.
We always want to be control of things….but that’s not how it should be.
I am absolutely IN LOVE with these lyrics:
I had a dream that I was captain of my soul
I was master of my fate, lost control. and then I sank
So I don’t want to take the lead, ‘cause I’m prone to make mistakes
All the folks who follow me, going end up in the wrong place
So let me just shadow you, let me trace your lines
Matter of fact, just take my pen, here, you create my rhymes
‘Cause if I do this by myself, I’m scared that I’ll succeed
And no longer trust in you, ‘cause I only trust in me
And see, that’s how you end up headed to destruction
Paving a road to nowhere, pour your life out for nothing
Just keep these things in mind. It’s not easy. And there’s no concrete answer on “HOW” to do this. The only thing I can say is PRAY.
God once said to me, “Prayers can solve even the most complex problems your heart could ever have.”
I believe in those words. That’s when prayer is powerful. When you believe.
And if you don’t believe in prayer or it’s power—this is what I know: God will prove to you someday that it’s more than words to someone you can’t see. It’s a weapon. He will show you.
-splashofhope || A Light in the Dark
I give my heart away so damn easily. And it takes years to get it back.
No wonder God doesn’t allow me to date a lot of people like some of my friends.
My heart can’t handle it.
Beauty :: Perception :: The Cycle.
Sometimes, many times actually, I’ll look at myself and I’ll say, “God…you made me so plain. I can’t find anything about me that is physically appealing. Why couldn’t you have made me beautiful like others?”
And of course, I always hear God say that He made me perfect. It’s not about what’s on the outside. It’s the inside that radiates true and genuine beauty.
However, all of this has got me thinking….
I’m not the only one who doubts my beauty.
So of the most beautiful friends and people that I know doubt their beauty.
I compare myself to them.
They compare themselves to others.
And it’s this never-ending cycle caused the the enemy that wants us to be totally distracted from accepting our true worth. The enemy does everything in his power to stop us from believing that we are beautiful, that we are worth something.
And the cycle is so real, and it does not stop at the physical.
I started to think tonight that maybe the prettiest woman in the universe could look at me and be jealous of the soul that’s within me; the faith that I possess.
I realized that it is indeed possible for the most gorgeous woman in the world to look down on the plainest girl in the world and say, “I wish that I could be here,” while that plain girl wishes it could be the other way around.
Why is it such a struggle for us to be happy with who we are? What we have?
Next time you look in the mirror, I encourage you to take a deeper look.
What really matters to you?
What is it that you want to attract? And in what means do you want to attract them?
And if that wasn’t clear then this is what I mean: If you want someone who is worth holding on to, first make yourself into the person that is worth holding on to. Be someone with the beautiful soul that radiates outward and shines upon everything you do….everything you are.
“No life is a waste. The only time that we waste is the time we spend thinking we’re alone.”
Little thoughts:
1. I can’t believe I’m graduating this year.
2. I can’t believe next week is the closing week of the musical.
3. I can’t believe there are FIVE SHOWS NEXT WEEK. But it will be great.
4. I LOVEEEEEEEE that Collin tried tying my bow from my hat today. Even though I kept laughing during the song because of him, it was the cutest thing in the world. He really wants to be the protector of my hat from falling off my head. Even if he makes it worse.
5. Why does Aiden and Morgan keep saying I’m a zombie and the bad guy. Why do they keep jumping on me and attacking me with their nerf guns. It’s okay. They love me and I love them<3
6. My feelings.
7. So a rejection today, eh?
8. Nervous and anxious and scared about my last two letters….
9. Just……….ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh with EVERYTHING.
“But if I were prettier, I’d be easier to love.”
This is for the ladies, but hey—it can apply to guys too.
I’ve been struggling with this thought a lot lately. Often times it’s just so obvious, the attention that beautiful girls/attractive guys will get from literally everyone around them. Everyone wants to be their friend. They win over everyone and they have the capability to win over almost ANYONE that they want. That’s just the way it is. There’s no sugar-coating the fact.
But when it comes to attracting people in hopes that they would love you, I’ve come to realize how crucially important it is to realize and believe that the TRUE people who are actually WORTH keeping around, are the people who love you for WHO YOU ARE and NOT for how you appear.
Cut out everything else. Cut out the idea that you NEED to have every single person love you to find your self worth. Cut out the “need” to have people look up to you because you are physically perfect.
People should look up to you because you constantly try to achieve spiritual perfection. THAT’S why people should look up to you! Not because of your looks but because of your CHARACTER.
And when it comes to dating,
how much better is it to know that someone fell in love with you NOT merely because of your looks, but because of who you truly are.
And honestly, if they see the dirt and grind that’s beneath the surface of what you show everyone….and they still absolutely love you and choose to stick around, know that THEY ARE WORTH holding on to. Seriously.
These insecurities have been eating away at me for the past two or three weeks…and by God I am so happy that I’m starting to come to terms with the truth.
I may not be physically perfect or completely attractive like my friends or other people I know….But it’s such a comfort to know that God knew what He was doing when He created me. Every single flaw I see in myself, HE SEES AS PERFECTION. And God did this to reveal the reality that one of the greatest joys in life is having people love you for who you are on the inside, not for what fades.
“Child, it is one thing to doubt me because you fear it….and it is another thing to doubt me because you don’t presently see how it could come to be. There is a difference, do you understand? To doubt because you can’t see how it could happen is like doubting the ever-coming Sunrise at 3 in the morning. Just because you cannot see signs of the coming dawn, does not mean it will not come.”
GOD (3232012)
So why don’t we talk more often?
