Sometimes I’ll start to really hurt when I begin thinking about my past.
The people I fell for, how easily I fell, how much I gave for hardly anything in return. It’s really sad.
I’m better now…but when I remember…it really hurts.
And the dream I had was so relevant. I was in an airport and my bags were on the floor. A man covered with a sign with a phone number written in red and black kept coming to steal my bags.
When something of my friend’s got stolen, I tried to help get that, but the man came back and I yelled, “WHY DO YOU KEEP TRYING TO STEAL MY THINGS?”
And I pressure pointed him, but he would press another pressure point on his hand so that he would not faint…
Then he pressure pointed my neck, and I could not breath at all.
My friend’s translation of this was very correct. I am always trying to leave my past behind, thus seeing an airport….the man counteracting my attacks symbolizes how past men in my life control me and my feelings…to the point where it’s like my heart can hardly breathe at times. The sign symbolized the dark times, thus using the colors red and black.
Well I guess this is just on my mind and I wanted to get it all out.
When I love, I love hard.
After the past 3 years, I AM very cautious about falling in love. Some days I don’t want to fall in love at all. There are great guys out there, that has been proven to me over the last several months…Still, I play it safe.
“LOVE IS PAIN, AND UNDERSTANDING IS THE ANSWER.” -God.
And His other quote, “LOVE IS POSSIBLE NOT THROUGH VISIONS OF FOREVER, BUT VISIONS OF STAYING TOGETHER.”
I always hold those close to me. I used to always think, “forever,” but forever cannot come on it’s own…especially if someone is not willing to try…and that’s why He said, “Visions of staying together.”
Well anyway. Love comes at the right time, with the right person, for the right reasons.