I Fiiiinally figured out what’s wrong.
I know why I’ve been feeling this way. I was finallyyy able to understand it, thank God.
I can’t stand that people can move on so quickly. No matter who or what relationship it may be—-friendship or ex. I hate seeing how they can make it not matter so quickly.
I am just NOT like anyyy of my friends who can analyze a situation for a bit, then finally move on and live on happily again.
Nope. I’ll analyze it, figure things out, try to move on…but as I see how they’re life is going on so quickly, ALL these heartbroken emotions rush back in. And lately it’s been happening over and over and over again.
It’s unbearable and I am sooo envious of the people who are like that.
Maybe though, sometimes it will leave you empty. No, I know it will. When you move on so quickly, and you don’t even THINK or CONSIDER what the person you left behind feels…yeah, THAT will leave you empty.
When you think, “I’m okay, THEY will move on EVENTUALLY.” No, that will leave you empty.
Because in the end, though they Will move on, you will eventually be left alone again…and who will be there then?
It all depends, it really does. But that’s a point that should be considered.
Don’t leave people empty, or else you will be left empty.
And I guess another big part of it was just…how I care SOOOOO much for people who honestly, and I’ll blatantly say it, don’t give a shit.
People who put me down, people who don’t think about how I feel or are willing to understand how I feel….I am so much nicer to them than they deserve. One, because I know that it’s right, and two because I just can’t stand hurting people or let THEM feel what I feel.
And because of that….I end up finding it hard to forgive people. Because in the end, I FEEL like it’s not fair. Then later out I take my emotions out on others, or just on myself.
But I know, I really truly honestly know that there’s much much more to what I simply feel. I know that.
So I have to get past this pain. I NEED to.
I know why it all happened…so there’s no use letting it hurt me because of my own personal emotions.
As much as it hurts me….I’ll be happy for them…
If you love someone.. you learn that it’s NOT about yourself anymore.
My good friend Danny told me, “Worry about how they feel…then they will worry about how YOU feel.”
(and I’m not just talking about boy-girl love..I AM talking about family and friendship love. WHATEVER situation you are in…..please consider what I’ve said.)