“Forgiven” -Sanctus Real

I have heard this song a COUNTLESS number of times….but for some reason today when it played in the car ride home…I really listened to the lyrics and I started to cry.

I was surprised how much I could actually relate to this song. Maybe you can too..

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Well the past is playing with my head
And failure knocks me down again
I’m reminded of the wrong
That I have said and done
And that devil just wont let me forget

In this life
I know what I’ve been
But here in your arms
I know what I am


I’m forgiven
I’m forgiven
And I don’t have to carry
The weight of who I’ve been
Cause
I’m forgiven

My mistakes are running through my mind
And I’ll relive my days, in the middle of the night
When I struggle with my pain, wrestle with my pride
Sometimes I feel alone, and I cry

In this life
I know what I’ve been
But here in your arms
I know what I am

I’m forgiven
And I don’t have to carry
The weight of who I’ve been
Cause 
I’m forgiven

When I don’t fit in and I don’t feel like I belong anywhere
When I don’t measure up to much in this life
I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ ‘cause

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I mean I can’t even express how out of place I feel at school nowadays. To think I used to be the person who always had a place to go…a place to feel at home.

Sometimes I wonder if it’s because of how sad I’ve been that people just don’t want to be around me.

They’ll talk to me for a bit, then they’ll go off and talk to their other friends as if I’m not even there sitting by myself still.

And that hurts me more than anyone can ever know.

I mean to even think that I’m crying while I write this. I am sooo tired of feeling out of place without friends to hang out with.  

Well…

Aside from them,

Aside from all that I feel,

I am a treasure in the arms of Christ.

And He will bring me to the right people…at the right time….